I’m back!! Again... I swear, I do love to blog, but things
have been hectic in disgusting ways so getting at the computer has been
impossible. But here I am, just in time for a catch-up FFS, going out in
solidarity with the beautiful Sarah at Dear Baby G.
Strap yourselves in, it’s a big’un!
Diddy is still calling my uterus home... No FFS
Offense is being taken at sharing personal space with my
internal organs. She’s waged war against them...FFS
I’m 36 weeks. They told me I’d maybe last until 35 weeks, so I’m getting uncomfortable and
impatient...FFS
I’m still Braxton Hicksing away for a good part of every
day....FFS
I tell ya, with all these ‘practice’ contractions, my uterus
better be well-rehearsed for a drama free birth...FFS
Despite measuring ‘small for my dates’ from the outside, an
ultrasound this week shows that Diddy is, in fact, HUMUNGUS...FFS
I’m going to give birth to freaking Sasquatch... FFS
Boo (O) has gone from not wanting to know me straight into
abandonment issues...FFS
Everytime I get frustrated at her, she bursts into tears and
declares ‘you don’t like me anymore, you’re going to leave me!’...FFS
Not sure if being manipulated or...FFS
We have an enrolment interview next week with the local
Catholic school...No FFS
I’m not sure I’m ready to have a kid in school...FFS
I’ve checked out of parenting Bozo (L)...FFS
This might sound harsh on 18 different levels, but his
mother is using him as a means of manipulating myself and his father...FFS
She refuses to buy him new clothes for her house, and I’m too tired and pregnant to cope with arguing
that it’s not our responsibility to outfit him when he’s under her roof...FFS
Beyond that, his mother and grandmother don’t make him do
anything for himself, and his personal autonomy is diminishing rapidly...FFS
The kid is 10 and can’t wash himself properly....FFS
I’ve had to check out in self-defence or my brain will
explode from the frustration...FFS
Husbeast is still
unemployed...FFS
In a way, this is a positive. There’s no question that he’ll
be able to come to hospital with me no matter the time of day or night...FFS
However, keeping our heads above water on welfare payments
is getting to be exhausting...FFS
I’ve gotten very
resourceful with cheap food...No FFS
But the family car (which is as old as I am) probably only
has another 6 good months in it...FFS
Husbeast has finally gotten the hint that I'm not moving and started doing the cooking and cleaning I'm no longer mobile enough to manage... No FFS
BUT
Did I mention I’m STILL pregnant? FFS
Ohh I missed this. I’m sorry, Sanity-Seekers, I’ll never
leave you for this long again!!
